Feeling really low.
I feel like I'm nothing and contribute nothing to this world. I'm a stay at home mum and I love my kids but I feel that I don't have anything good to give In this world. I was never shown any direction in life.. have low self esteem and was never pushed.. I think my mum only wanted me to go to college so she could continue to claim child benefit. I was brought up around alcohol and alcohol always come first. I have had OCD since I was a child which no one got me help for and now as an adult I feel like I've spent my whole childhood and adulthood so far battling with intrusive thoughts that I don't have any memory. Lots of my life is a blank! And I'm worried my OCD is affecting my memory. I had CBT around 6 years ago but after the treatment my OCD was still there. ( I don't think I was entirely honest with her About the thoughts I was having due to the shame I felt. I'm losing my teeth one by one due to the poor diet I had as a child and because my parents couldn't be bothered to teach me nothing. I'm so worried because I can't remember certain Parts of my life. It's like I have forgotten the main structure of my child hood and he only small memories I have are the bad things. I feel like I don't deserve to be human. What's wrong with me? How do I get out of feeling like this?
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Feel like I'm nothing
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sammyjayneex · 25/01/2017 23:11
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