so depressed

[Piper2016]

Last year was the worst year of my life I left my home due to an ex partner being abusive he terrised my head I was full of anxiety and panic attacks I felt so alone even tho I wasn't I had abit of family not far I had so called friends battering my head as well i took propanal that my doctor gave me and felt numb I wasn't thinking straight I ended up leaving my home with my children Im now in place where I have no one I'm depressed and full of anxiety and panic Attacks looking back I think it was worse than what it actually was but now I feel like I'm losing my mind all I want to do is go back to be nearer to my family and I'm struggling to see how il get back there I'm no longer working private landlords won't even look at you when your not in work I have no gaurantor either I'm struggling with money if I leave here and stay with family the council will say iv made myself intentionally homeless so iv read on line my parent is also not the best of health so really could do with my support I don't no what to do I'm am now really alone my doctors gave me medication and I'm also seeing a therapist but it's not helping I can't sleep I'm up all night over thinking I'm so scared and I can't see a way out my kids hate it now where we are I feel like iv made my situation worse by moving I haven't a clue how I'm going to get back to family my previous job said they would take me back as I worked part time I'm at my wits end can't eat or anything I just feel so alone

[lovelearning]

can't eat or anything

Piper2016

See your GP as soon as possible

Tell him/her about your loss of appetite

and that the medication and therapy are not working

[EvaSthlm]

There is a site called nomorepanic.co.uk and you could go there right now, tonight, and find new friends to talk to online. Also, try to solve one problem at a time - not all problems in one big go. Finding an income must be priority one, and cutting down on things you don't need (unnecessary subscriptions for example). Take a big notebook and write one problem on each page, then under you can write down various solutions or what options are available. Talk to other people, they might see some option that you can't see because you're so stressed out. I don't think your kids hate you, but they might hate to, and feel helpless about, seeing you so depressed and having it so difficult...

[Piper2016]

Thank you both and iv just had a look on that site il sign up

[lovelearning]

Love always

With an abundance of positivity you will counter the negative, always

Tiffany Luard