Hi,
Obvious name change for this... I can't admit this and other posts make me recognisable.
I think I have to admit that I am depressed and take the tablets I've been prescribed... but I just don't seem to be able to accept it.
I have one child who has been poorly since birth, many hospital visits, operation, resuscitation etc... when I returned to work I cut down my working days but increased hours to work the same amount. I find the whole NHS pathway stuff difficult to navigate and frustrating.
Before Christmas I was told what I had suspected all along, that my eldest DC needs assessing for Aspergers, all the hope I had for him outgrowing things has now gone.
I felt like I was drowning and cried for the best part of a week. I feel exhausted.
Then I had an argument with my DH... and I feel like it broke me, I couldn't speak, I felt like if I spoke I wouldn't be able to stop sobbing and would never recover. I needed to for the DC.
My last day at work before Christmas I felt too unwell to be there...I made it through the day by not talking to anyone.
I saw the GP who prescribed me ADS but they made me feel sick and vacant. I stopped them.
Over Christmas I begin to feel a bit better (I wasn't sobbing, I slept more, I wasn't exhausted & my mood was more even). At my follow up with the GP she changed tablets for me but I haven't taken them yet. I'm scared of admitting I have gone "wrong"
but then... last night I couldn't sleep again, I feel sick and close to tears... today was first hospital appointment of the year, tomorrow school starts and next week it's work. it all feels too much.
I'm due on my period and since DC2 my mood is worse around this time.
Am I depressed, do I need the tablets...
I'm scared to take them
I'm scared I'll break if I don't...
I don't know what I want from this thread... maybe some light?
thank you
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I'm depressed, aren't I?
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Facefactsnow · 03/01/2017 14:35
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