Hi all. I'm not new to mumsnet, but this is my first time actually writing a post. Last week I was diagnosed with PTSD, on top of the depression which I've had for seemingly my whole life. I've been with my partner for over 12 years and he's really supportive and brilliant. I still have no idea why he is with me. We have a young son also, who is complete handful, but also brilliant.
I found out yesterday that the only stable, loving person from my childhood, my wonderful grandmother is terminally ill in hospital, with only a few days to live. I'm really not coping with this news at all. I've been to see her and said goodbye, but she's not really with it. I doubt she knew I was there. To see someone I love and look up to, be so frail and weak is absolutely terrifying. I have no idea what to do, hence writing here. I'm just waiting for the news that she's gone.
I've only just started to get my head around the PTSD, and the reasons I have it. I still haven't told anyone why, apart from my partner, he knows some reasons, but not everything. I wish I could scream, get angry, cry, anything. I just feel completely numb and alone. I feel I have nothing left emotionally to deal with this right now.
I've been to see my GP recently, and have been prescribed various ADs, none work apart from mirtazapine, and that's only for my insomnia. Also been referred to CMHT, I have no idea how long this will take. I have no idea what else to do.
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Recent diagnosis of PTSD, and now this
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Rekorderlig · 29/12/2016 18:08
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