I'm seeing a psychiatrist ...it is actual to get a diagnosis for ADHD. But every time I've been so far we talk about my depression. He said he wants to get my mood stable before anything else - I think he thinks I'm worse than I think.
I spend the time afterwards going through and thinking about what was said. I have been very up and down - was doing quite well then plummeted at the start of last week before my last visit, so I wasn't really in a good place.
He asked me if I had had any suicidal thoughts (I've been suicidal before) - I said without thinking 'I don't particularly want to live but I haven't been planning anything like I did before'
I keep thinking about that. I'm not suicidal (I didn't say I wanted to die) but that is a pretty messed up, sad thing to say/think. The fact I feel like that makes me feel sadder -more depressed. I keep telling myself that is the depression talking and I will get through this and it will get better...
I don't want to go back - I do want a diagnosis as it might help -but I don't think I want to talk about how I feel any more.
(When I was suicidal I spent every session crying, but never felt worse that I remember...I guess maybe I couldn't feel any worse)
I don't really cry etc currently -it is all very matter of fact.
Has anyone else had a similar experience to my current one and can tell me that it does get better with time - or should I tell him thinking about things is making me feel worse... and I don't want to talk about it?
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Talking about it making me feel worse...
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imcrackingup · 27/11/2016 22:43
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