Just need to tell someone, anyone how I'm feeling.
My three and a half week old daughter has been breast feeding almost continually for the last 36 hours, had about four hours (not in a block) where she hasn't been on the breast. She's even been sleeping on the breast but crying the second I take it from her mouth. So I cant put her down, sleep, eat, anything because she cries.
Now my dog has started crying because her dad shouted because he is fed up and angry because I wont give DD a dummy (really don't want to). Its already killing me to give her 3 bottles of formula (she usually sleeps away from me for 60-90 mins after she's had one hence why I have been giving them her)
She's healthy, lots of wet nappies, gaining weight but has reflux so is on infant Gaviscon 3 times a day (this is the other reason for the bottles, only way she will accept the gaviscon) and now she's only pooping once a day. Huge poop doctor said not to worry and keep up as we are. There's tons of milk because even when she has finished feeding and I try expressing I can get a lot out, never actually managed to empty the breast? Feeding support worker said I just have a large supple and am fast at replenishing?
Just made up her bottle and she cried the whole time I was making it, ddog has been crying for the last half hour because of dp shouting. I have fairly bad post natal, saw doctor and on lofepramine along with ptsd caused by traumatic experience with dd1 and her following death. Keep having flashbacks. Supposed to be under the perinatal mental health team, they saw me for an assessment while I was pregnant and said I needed support but haven't spoken to me since apart from 5 mins on the phone last week when I had my doctors appointment. Struggling with thoughts of SH, used to have issues with this.
DD has just finished her bottle and now wants back on the breast, just cant stop crying, feel like an awful mom. I know she is gaining weight so she must be getting enough milk but the constant feeding is now making me doubt myself. Feel so lost and alone. I love her so much I just want her to be happy
Sorry for the rant just needed to let it out somewhere.
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CrazyGreyhoundLady · 14/11/2016 13:18
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