I feel a burden to the world, that no one wants me. That I'm truly alone.
Existing is hard work. Breathing is hard work. My chest feels heavy and painful, like molten lava is washing over my rib-cage. I feel as though someone has been kicking me in the chest.
I feel trapped under a huge boulder. And no matter how hard I try, I cannot lift it off. It's crushing me physically and mentally.
I will fall asleep tonight. But the thought of waking up tomorrow, and finding the boulder on top of me and still not being able to move it, that thought is scary, is hopeless.
The feeling of isolation, of aloneness, is terrifying. I can't reach out from under this boulder and grab someone's hand, anyone's hand.
Depression is aloneness.
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Depression - a boulder you just can't lift
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GeordieBadgers · 24/10/2016 21:31
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