I am 40 and for the past 25+ years I have been on and off antidepressants. I am on some at the moment and have been on this particular course of them for over 3 years now.
I have always felt very 'different' to other people (my childhood with abusive parents did not help but that's another story), and have had extreme paranoia, along with an inability at times to enjoy anything.
I do seem to swing from either a total delirious happiness to a total rock bottom where I have no interest in anything and every task is a major chore, whether it's making the bed, making a sandwich for the kids, or nipping to the local shop. When I am in a 'happy' mode I shop loads, and when I'm at rock bottom I get disproportionately worried about money and wish I was rich and get depressed because we are not rich! I am also impulsive at times and will do things on the spur of the moment such as sign up for a college course and then regret it within hours even though at the time it seemed like the only thing I wanted to do. Also when I am rock bottom I can't think with any clarity to have a conversation with anyone.
Anyway, to cut a long story short since bipolar has been in the media a lot over the past few years I have started to suspect I might have it but mentioned it to my GP a couple of years ago who just said no, I had depression.
However in recent months a new work colleague has started at my workplace. I sit next to him and we chat a lot and he has bipolar disorder. We chat a lot about our conditions and he has been an amazing source of support, and our symptoms are almost identical, and I became more convinced than ever that I have bipolar.
So I went to see a different GP at my surgery yesterday, a new GP there with a specialist interest in mental health. He was in agreement within a few minutes of me starting to explain my thoughts to him that it does sound 'very like bipolar', and has agreed to refer me to a psychiatrist but said it might be a wait.
I just wondered if anyone else has been misdiagnosed like this in the past? And how did you feel? I feel a real immense relief today that I actually may have 'something' and am not just totally abnormal and fucked up in the head, but on the other hand I feel a bit upset that I have spent 25 years feeling awful and on, effectively, the wrong treatment.
I would love some advice/experiences/reassurance please. Thanks :-)
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Has anyone else been diagnosed for years with anxiety and depression when you actually have Bipolar?
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HappiestMrsChicken · 21/10/2016 16:43
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