www.experienceproject.com/stories/Pretend-Im-Someone-Else/1011252
I'm not the OP in this article but I do the same. I function in life the way everyone expects me to, being mum, wife etc, but when I'm alone (not just home alone, so alone in whatever room of the house) I do this. I am someone else, different husband etc. On the one hand I believe I'm mentally ill and on the other hand I think it's the only thing keeping me sane.
It started as young as five. I grew up in a very violent and abusive home. The only emotion I remember having as a child is pure and utter fear. This was how I coped. I am an only child so in the privacy of my bedroom, or during the many times I was home alone(they would go out and tell me to lock the door and don't let anyone in, even when I was 5) I became someone else. Prettier, smarter, more talented and very much loved by my pretend parents.
I have never grown out of it. I'm in my forties now. There have been times when it has been alot less prevalent but it's increasing again. I have a decent husband and a lovely daughter. Very few friends and no other family about. My dh parents are very elderly and he has no living siblings so there are no bil or sil or cousins for my daughter.
And I have several chronic illnesses which make it impossible to hold down a job. I feel maybe 60% ok about 2 or 3 days a week and that's the best it has been for 8 years. Problem is I never know which days will be ok ish and which ones I'll be flat in bed barely able to move about. And since employers need people who can be at work in a schedule I can't work.
We have money issues as well. DH is earning just enough that we're not entitled to any benefits but only just. So some people who are on benefits actually have more income per month than we do.
All of this leads me to my escapism and I prefer that 1 million times more than my life.
Anyway just wanted to vent and see if anyone else has same. Do you try to get mental help for it? I wouldn't even know how to start vocalising this face to face with anyone.
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