accidental OD caused havoc

[iamsam]

In a rush this morning, I accidentally took my AD (Effexor SR 150mg) twice. I didn't twig until late this afternoon but in the meantime, I caused havoc. DD were on our way to the beach to meet my DP. I had trouble driving; my concentration was off and I felt slow but also unusually aggressive. I even got lost! We were late and by the time we got there, my hands were shaking and my heart was thumping like it would burst. Anyway, I picked a fight with DP over a random comment he made, burst into tears, tried to end the relationship, etc, etc. Poor DD was mortified and furious with me. DP was clearly miserable. I wanted to shut up, hearing myself, but couldn't seem to stop the words tumbling out of my mouth. Eventually I managed to pull myself together but the day was spoilt. It was only when DD and I were on our way home that I realized what had happened as by this time, I was feeling physically unwell, nauseous and even more jittery than before. I stopped at the chemist to ask for advice and was told not to worry, that the side-effects I was experiencing were "normal" and would wear off within 24-48 hours. I've tried to reach DP but he's not answering his phone. I'm distraught.

Words of wisdom and comfort would be much appreciated.

[givingitago85]

That's a tough one. I am on the same meds and have done exactly the same thing with double dose, complete accident! Had a very similar reaction felt anxiety through the roof and very very cranky along with the physical feelings of 'rushing'.
If he won't pick up could you send him a text?

[givingitago85]

Oh and don't beat yourself up over it, mistakes happen and we all have very bad days sometimes, once the dust has settled you will feel better

[iamsam]

I would text him but since he didn't pick up when I rang, I'm guessing he doesn't want to talk to me now.

[givingitago85]

Very true. If it were me I'd send this to my DP - granted, he might not take it the same way
I'm really sorry about earlier, I'm sorry was acting irrationally, I have just realized I doubled up on my meds this morning and have spoken to the pharmacist who said that it can cause some pretty full on symptoms but should calm down in about 24 hours, I know it's no excuse, but I want you to know that I didn't plan on behaving that way and I feel mortified x
Again, just what I would do, he can either accept it or not but right now you just need to stay as calm as you can until those meds wear off

[iamsam]

That sounds perfect, giving! But I'm scared he won't reply (irrationally) and that would be devastating, especially now when I'm still strung out. I took a Xanax, which is starting to kick in. Thanks for the support; no-one's around to talk to in RL.

[givingitago85]

That's ok iamsam, maybe once the lovely Xanax has kicked in you'll feel more yourself. Take the pressure off and maybe text him tomorrow. I'm sure it will work out. These things usually do in the end (I know that's a cliche and I kind of want to slap me for saying it too haha, but they do). You just focus on you and worry about it when you're better able to

[iamsam]

I need/want to be told that "things will work out and it will be okay in the end".

The damage has been done, I can't change that. And we've had similar rows... or at least I rant and he listens but says nothing. Yet today was a complete over-reaction on my part. Uncalled for, unwarranted.

I was so unfocussed that I actually pulled my dress off on the beach, believing I had put my swimsuit on at home, only to realize that I was standing there in my bra and pants! DP and DD laughed - I would have done the same had I been in my right mind - but I was mortified. To the point of tears. So unlike me!

Arghh!

[givingitago85]

Things will work out, they always do :)

Try not to dwell too much, I know you must be feeling pretty crappy about it, and that's ok, just remember, shit happens, he will get over it, you will be able to laugh about it...eventually and it will be chalked up to 'one of those days'

[UnusualPolarBear]

How are things now iamsam? Xx

[iamsam]

Things are much, much better! Thanks for asking, Unusual and for your support, giving. I was thinking about you earlier, very grateful for your wise words.

DP rang first thing in the morning. He wanted to give me time to calm down, not knowing of course that I was suffering from my "overdose". He was horrified and very sympathetic. I spent the day quietly; I felt pretty rough TBH. All better now.

[UnusualPolarBear]

I'm so glad to hear it

[givingitago85]

So glad to hear iamsam !!