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Hi. I'm not sure I'm posting in the right place so let me know if I'm not!
I've suffered from anxiety and depression for most of my life (abusive childhood) and have been on medications, seen counsellors etc but after not feeling better I'm currently medication free and accepting I'll always be this way.
I'm a single parent and have worked most of my adult life. I'm in retail which can be hard when I don't want any interaction but I force myself and for the most part, enjoy working and supporting myself and my family. I'm a manager which I think convinces people there's nothing wrong with me. I'm also very good at putting on a front.
For the last few months I've started struggling a bit. I've been very down and the job has started to feel a lot harder. There are so many new policies etc and the job is quite physical and I've found myself feeling stressed and wrung out. Then a couple of weeks ago there was an incident that led to a complaint and there is an investigation going on. Although the mistake wasn't my fault, as the person in charge I will be at least partially responsible. I felt like it was the final straw. I dread going into work now, I feel sick and I'm barely eating. I just want to stay in bed and not see anyone. I've thought about looking for another job but this whole thing has shaken my confidence. I'm questioning my abilities now and that is making me feel awful. I've been with the company for a few years so I'm entitled to sick pay but I feel guilty and embarrassed about taking time off (especially as a staff member is about to go on holiday for 2 weeks so staffing would be an issue). I'm seriously considering handing my notice in and taking a break for a while but I couldn't sign on, I'm not confident enough for that. Plus I really don't think I could face a job interview or starting a new job while feeling like this. Can I leave and not claim jobseekers, that way I'm not hurting anyone? But then how do I support my family? I'm so confused and really need a bit of help. Sorry this is so long.
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Handing notice in because I'm scared to work?
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Gingerbreath · 21/08/2016 22:20
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