feeling really bad today not sure how to get myself out of it

[alittlemoretodo]

I have been suffering on off depression for years I go through phases of being really depressed then i feel fine and think i am better then get really depressed again like a never ending cycle.

I recently had a baby and started new antidepressants, I thought they were helping but actually I think i am just stuck in the same old cycle.

My dh left yesterday i think he is sleeping at his office i dont know when he will come back - so I am on my own with my 6 children and tbh I am feeling like my grip on being "ok" is rapidly fading.

I already take fluoxitine and I am having counselling for depression on fridays (on;y on my 2nd week) but I just feel like i am not coping very well. I am just pacing about the place and flitting from one thing to the next, I have been getting intrusive thoughts back again as well which is upsetting mostly about self harm. I already have scars from the last few months I dont want more.

I have no one in real life to talk to at all so i just dont know what to do.

[fortifiedwithtea]

OP just wanted you to know I read your post and empathise with you. My MH has gone tits up again and I'm feeling pretty shit too. I'm starting back on Citalopram today, the meds take a couple of weeks to start working.

Hoping brighter days coping will come for us.