no support and I'm getting worse

[GreenGoth89]

I was diagnosed with PTSD nearly 12 years ago, and since then I've either been in therapy or on a waiting list. I've just moved areas so I'm back on a waiting list for EMDR. I have gone through countless ADs which haven't helped so I don't know what more my GP can do for me as CBT triggers me and I'm starting to get more grumpy, short tempered, teary, paranoid, jumpy and more flashbacks - being triggered by the most banal stuff. It's majorly effected my uni work (I'm about 4 months behind), and I know it's affecting my relationship (DP kept on asking why I was so quiet tonight, after him complaining that I've been moaning at him for the past couple of week). I don't really feel in my body. What do I do? Do I just keep trying self care stuff and struggling on or is there something else the doctor can do? I was told it would be about 6-12 weeks but that still feels like a long time right now.

[RedCrimson]

I'm sorry you're feeling like this. I would definitely go and see your doctor again. There may be something else available to help you. Don't be scared to keep asking for help, you will get better, as my GP once said to me, it took a long time to spiral down to the depths that I was, and it will take a long time to crawl back up.
Big hugs

[GreenGoth89]

I feel like a major hypocrite - my DP's ex has serious mental health issues which have meant she emotionally neglected DSS. I'm feeling like if I seek help then I'm no different to her, even though DSS is loved, much better adjusted and well cared for by me and DP. She doesn't know about my issues and I'm scared she'd use it as ammunition against me if she ever saw me going for an appointment somewhere

[RedCrimson]

It won't go against you, and you're not a hypocrite. Mental health is no different to any other illness, it's just that you can't see it. There's no shame in asking for help. And if she sees you, she's still got no idea what the appointment is for.