Ready to give up.

[Psion]

After 7 weeks titrating up to 200mg of Trazadone, and nearly 4 weeks of titrating up to 125mg of Quetiapine I just don't think it's having any effect.

Last week I had 2-3 days of feeling quite a bit better. And this Sunday/Monday was pretty good.

But since Monday I have rapidly gone downhill again. Yesterday and today I have felt the worse I have ever felt. Today the early morning anxiety was so bad it was almost paralysing and I had to struggle to even get out of bed.

Spent over an hour sobbing this morning as just felt so hopeless and despairing. Rang the Crisis Team and they dropped off 2 days worth of 5mg diazepam.

They're coming back out tomorrow to see how the diazepam has worked and how I am. I do feel calmer since taking one 5mg this afternoon and have to take another at bedtime, then another soon as I wake.

But it isn't going to cure anything is it. Just masque stuff. The psychiatrist mentioned we could increase to 150mg of Quetiapine. But I honestly believe the early morning anxiety has got worse since starting it 4 weeks ago. But my CPN insists this can't be possible?

I just feel like giving up. This is no life. It really isn't. I'm already dreading tomorrow morning as I just wake up to something like one, long extended panic attack lasting a couple of hours. But I feel so groggy and drowsy it's almost impossible to get out of bed (and I always wake at 5.30am).

[Teaandsymphony]

Hi Psion. Please don't give up.

[Psion]

Thank you. I just don't see the point if every day is such a hard slog with no hope.

I probably won't do anything stupid because of how much I love my DCs. But the thought of living on, feeling like this for years just fills me with despair.

[Teaandsymphony]

I empathise, I really do. I wish I had an answer. I just know that tomorrow is another day and it might be a better day. Just breathe, slowly in and out. Please don't give up

[Orchidflower1]

Thinking of you op~ stay strong. Sending you a hug xx

[AliceScarlett]

But I honestly believe the early morning anxiety has got worse since starting it 4 weeks ago. But my CPN insists this can't be possible?

It certainly is possible! Its how you feel! Are you being offered anything other than medication?