falling apart and just need a hand to hold I think

[FrancineSmith]

I've suffered with depression for as long as I can remember. I've had about 6 months with no ADs as I was feeling 'together' for the first time in years. I've just broken down at work over a very minor thing and it's made me realise that I'm not doing as well as I'd thought I was.
I'm trying to be proactive so I don't sink too far and end up losing my job, so I've got a Drs appointment in a few minutes. Feeling like a massive failure to be back here again (even though I know that's irrational as I have no control) and I can't stop crying.

[NanaNina]

Oh sod mental illness - why does it make us feel ashamed and a failure. We don't feel like this when we're physically ill. It's just something else to make us feel shite - oh and the stigma of course.

Looks like you need to go back on the meds. Wishing you well.

[FrancineSmith]

Thank you Nana. Doc has prescribed me citalopram again, which worked ok before. I'm still sitting in the car park trying to psych myself up to go back to work. I know if I don't go back today it will be harder tomorrow, but I'm dreading seeing people who saw me all upset and flustered on the way out.