I don't want to feel this shitty! (anxiety)

[Puffinity]

I have OCD and anxiety, which will project onto whatever is going on in my life. It has been extremely bad lately and I am just so fed up with it! I just wish there was a way to switch it off! I hate feeling like this, it's all-consuming, this constant feeling of fear and doom and the shame if I fuck things up (which I never have, to date, but never stop worrying about either). Today I was thinking I should just snap out of it, but I know I'm not doing myself any favours by thinking like that, because it's not that easy. Anyway, I guess I just want some sympathy...

[Sweetandsour93]

I sympathize OP, I suffer from bad anxiety as well. I often feel constantly on edge and panicky that something bad is going to happen. Lately I have had many anxious thoughts about my family dying, it's like deep down I know my thoughts are irrational but fear washes over me and I can't seem to do anything about it. When I do relax, it always feels temporary as if I'm just waiting for something to go wrong.

[treaclesoda]

I suffer from anxiety too, although it is now well controlled with medication. But at my worst everything was terrifying. Everything. My mind played such tricks on me. I was exhausted and confused and frankly life was unbearable. I would never have understood it if I hadn't experienced it myself. You have my sympathy.

[Puffinity]

Thanks both! I'm a little better today though still worrying what other people will think of me if things go wrong. I know they probably won't, but still. Trying to keep busy today doing things that need to be done!