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I want to kill myself :(

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SandraDeeIsBack Thu 28-Apr-16 15:22:04

I want to kill myself. I don;t think I will but I really want to. Is there anywhere in south London who can give me a hug and tell me everything will be ok, I'm a complete fuck-up and I just want to get off this earth, I just don't care anymore, I want to die

WhyCantIuseTheNameIWant Thu 28-Apr-16 15:24:01

I'm not in London, but I can send a hug. And a listening ear.

I don't know if it will all work out ok, but neither will you if you don't try.

Death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

SandraDeeIsBack Thu 28-Apr-16 15:25:19

Thanks. I know but there is nothing worth living for... everythings a mess, at least with death there is no more pain and worry and pressure and sadness and upset.

SandraDeeIsBack Thu 28-Apr-16 15:25:53

I just wanted to be perfect sad

whatevva Thu 28-Apr-16 15:30:39

I can send you a hug too.

My life is falling around my ears at the moment and I cannot see what else there is for me, or whether I want to go on. But I have been there before, so I know it will get better. Somehow. It will for you too.

flowers

Tate15 Thu 28-Apr-16 15:31:06

Perfect for what?

We are all perfectly imperfect.

SandraDeeIsBack Thu 28-Apr-16 15:34:20

Perfect for myself, I cant do it anymore, my life is so easy and im so awful, im lazy and disgusting and i just cant do it, whats the point

StuRedman Thu 28-Apr-16 15:36:50

You can do this. I had a failed suicide attempt last week and today I feel completely differently about it. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem and I promise you won't always feel like this.

Do you have a cpn? Call them if so. If not you can always turn up at a and e and they WILL help you. Or call someone.

dailyfailrag Thu 28-Apr-16 15:39:49

I can't really offer any advice except to say please don't kill yourself. The effect on the lives that you leave behind will be immense.

The Samaritans are really helpful. Consider giving them a call on 116 123.

WhyCantIuseTheNameIWant Thu 28-Apr-16 15:42:41

Go out somewhere where there are people walking about.

Watch them. They are all different. And not one of them is perfect.

I'll throw my imperfections up now.

I am still limping from a hurt ankle.
My tummy is too big. And looks awful in these warm track pants.

My hair is going white.
And needs a cut.

ClaudiaApfelstrudel Thu 28-Apr-16 15:42:45

hang in there!, as John Lennon said 'things will be ok in the end, if things are not ok, it's because it's not the end' flowers

Cinnamon2013 Thu 28-Apr-16 15:43:53

Would it help to talk more about what has brought you to this point?

Whatever your life may seem like from the outside it's not easy, and you're not lazy - it's tremendously hard to live each day carrying feelings like this.

You are stronger than you know.

Cinnamon2013 Thu 28-Apr-16 15:45:28

And as for perfect... There are better things in life to be than perfect, and I bet you are many of them.

BeccaMumsnet (MNHQ) Thu 28-Apr-16 15:46:21

Hello SandraDeeIsBack, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

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ElizabethLemon Thu 28-Apr-16 15:49:35

Whereabouts are you op? If you really feel like you want to harm yourself go to Kings or contact the Maudsley.

WolfMoon Thu 28-Apr-16 15:50:04

Oh lovely, I'm so sorry you are feeling like this. Also sending you a hug.

Would you like to talk about things? We're all here listening if you want us to.

mylaptopismylapdog Thu 28-Apr-16 16:00:59

Been there many times and jolly glad I have never acted on it. You have the sense to reach out and ask for support, my guess is if you were feeling better you would be one of the first to offer it.
I have been a support volunteer at the Samaritans and I know there are good listening ears there for you if you need them at any time.
If you think about it if someone really was perfect would they be likeable? The most intriguing things about people is they are individuals.
Sending you a big hug.

Marj1978 Thu 28-Apr-16 16:03:46

As for being 'lazy', to get up each day and do as much as run a comb through your hair or get dressed and washed is a huge achievement. Everything seems like a mountain to climb. Much love. Keep talking xx

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