I've name-changed for this because it isn't about me.
I've been struggling with my depression and anxiety for a while now, on meds, seeing psychiatrist monthly, CPN fortnightly, crisis team whenever.
Got a phone call last night to say my brother had been admitted to the hospital. He has schizophrenia and is an alcoholic. He's been drinking again and stopped taking his meds. I just feel like I can't cope. Last time he came out of the hospital he had to stay with me and he stayed out until the early hours of the morning every day, drinking, and woke me and all the neighbours up when he came home (I get up at six for work). Threw up all over my house, called me vile names etc. This went on for 4 weeks. I ended up exhausted and suicidal. He got a place in rehab and I haven't seen him since but he has obviously started drinking again.
I know he's ill, I know I need to step up again but I'm just so low at the thought of going through this again when I don't feel well myself. I went to visit last night but he refused to talk to me, just wanted money for fags and some clothes. Just give me a kick up the backside and tell me to get on with it please. This is the merry-go-round and I don't get to step off, so I know what I have to do. Can't quite seem to get myself in gear to do it though, just want to sleep.
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Kick up the backside needed
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HumphryDavy · 04/04/2016 20:13
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