My ds is 29 and has had problems all of his life. From the age of around 2 he has had behavioural issues. All through school there was major problems resulting in him being excluded on numerous occasions. he was seen by a child psychologist from about 3 with there being no diagnosis made. I tried all kinds of things, exclusion diets, punishing bad behaviour, rewarding the good etc, to no avail.
When he was 16 he cut his wrists and took an overdose and told me he was gay. This has never been an issue for me, I love him unconditionally. From then there has been on/off self harm, overdoses, codeine addiction, erratic behaviour. He was sent to prison last year for three months for sending threatening msgs to his psychiatrist. He should have been sectioned, he was going through a psychotic- like episode at the time. He was beaten up in prison and ridiculed for being gay.
Since he was released he has had good and bad days, more bad ones unfortunately. He has just split from his boyfriend and is struggling massively. Early this morning I received a text from him asking me to give him permission to end his life. He said the only reason he has'nt done it is because of me. He is an attention seeker and often puts concerning things on facebook. He has blocked me from seeing any of it but I quite often get msgs from people telling me they are worried about what he's been posting.
I text him and told him that I can't give him permission and that I love him dearly. He won't speak to me, says he wants to be left alone. I have four other kids. My 31yo dd has bpd, my 24 yo has ocd and anxiety and my 12 yo has anxiety. My 9 yo ds thankfully seems to be untouched by mh issues.
I forgot to mention that my ds was diagnosed with bpd a one years ago but was given another diagnosis not long after his release from prison. I can't remember what exactly it is but something like emotionally unstable personality disorder with narcissistic tendencies. I am at my wits end and truly don't know what to do. I blame myself as I have health anxiety and on/off depression.
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My ds wants my permission to end his life
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kaylasmum · 25/03/2016 12:24
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