Anxiety and distrust how do I fix myself

[Kotiro09]

I think Im going insane. I've been on citalopram for 3 months but I've had severe anxiety and depression. My pregnancy was tough I did it all on my own as my dh was over seas and wasnt too happy about my decision. I have really bad trust issues since then because Im scared he'll treat me disrespectfully again. He was harsh and embarrassed me in public and around friends saying I was fat and not as attractive as his ex, or any othet female for that matter, he even laughed at me for asking him to delete his exs nude photos from his laptop which he still hasnt done. and weve been together for over 5 yrs. He made me feel unworthy and usless.He was really hard on me in the beginning but said he didnt want to have his child grow up without a father. by the end of the pregnancy he decided to be more involved but its been tough trusting him. I dont want my baby to have two different families. Its also tough that his family dont think I'm good enough either. Now its nore to do with how useless I am as a mother. My being depressed is seen as another let down and shame. I dont know what to do I feel like Im going to have anxiety attacks everytime he mentions his mother visiting and I feel sick becuade I always wonder why Im not good enough, there has to be something wrong with me I dknt know how to fix whats wrong but its making my anxiety worse!

[Marchate]

My dear, he is at least partly responsible for your anxiety

I'm going to be honest with you. Your child would be happier with you as a single mum than in a home filled with tension

Having said that, only you can decide whether you could cope with leaving. But whatever, remember to keep your child's interests uppermost in your mind

Talk to your GP and health visitor. They will help you

[Kotiro09]

im a bit scared of raising a child on my own. thank you for the advice
I've booked an appt with the gp I hope the anxiety goes away