I've posted on here before under several different names, but this is the one I tend to use for my own mental health problems.
I have a long history of mental health probs - anxiety, depression, BPD.
I'm not doing very well at the moment. All I could think of a few days ago was killing myself, so I would go places to do with that. I couldn't help it, it was like I was on auto-pilot to that place. Now all I can think of is damaging myself - SH.
I've given in and done it. Calm for a bit. But now I need to do it worse, I need it to keep escalating or I'm a failure.
Stupid BPD manipulative attention-seeker. That's what they all think. So there's just no help. No help at all. Somebody help me, please!! I can't carry on like this!! Why are you making me suffer so much?!
Somebody help my poor children work through the issues they must have with their useless, defective mother. They deserve so much better.
Not really sure what I wanted from this post - maybe just somewhere to let loose a bit, and be a bit angry as to how things are. Maybe to write down the truth - that I've tried to resist doing these things but I'm just so tired, I haven't the strength to resist any more, I give up.
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I've tried, but I'm so tired now
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Criminy · 22/02/2016 20:07
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