Hi
I posted the other day about the fact I was starting a new job and my anxiety related to that. I'm so confused. I feel so lost and lonely. I feel like I don't know where my life is going. I started suffering with depression and anxiety when I was about 16, I'm not sure that it is particularly related to anything. Over the years I have been on various antidepressants and I can't say I have found any of them have made much difference.
I feel like my life is going no one. Everyone else seems to find things so easy but everything seems to be a struggle especially work. I was really academic at school and really wanted to have a good career but nothing seems to work out. I trained as a teacher but found teaching so stressful and so much pressure. After being bullied by my head teacher and being signed off for a long time with stress, depression and anxiety. It was a terrible time and I thought things would never get better. I ended up leaving teaching and got a job in a different field. For once I felt like I could do something, I enjoyed the job and the people were lovely. I stopped the antidepressants after a while and things were good.
Having been there several years I felt like I should start to look for something else because financially I was struggling (I live alone) and also liked the idea of progressing and building on what I had achieved and there was no opportunity to progress in that role. So I applied for another job in the same organisation just to see and was shocked to get it. I started last week (see my other thread) and since then all my anxiety has come back. I feel lost, I miss my old job. I'm so worried I've made a mistake with this job. I feel like I'm out of my depth. I've been so anxious all weekend. I feel sick with anxiety at the thought of going in today. I feel like I've messed everything up.
Sorry for the long post. I feel like I have no one else to talk to.
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BeBe32 · 22/02/2016 07:38
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