Hello, have nc as am known but my mental health is not.
Background - depression on and off for most of my life (circa 31yrs, d&a since 15ish) medicated with citalopram since Nov 2010 after a bereavement and emotional pause
This January, whilst feeling strong and confident, I stopped taking my meds. I was in 20mg and had been for about 18mnths.
All was going well, comments on my happiness/giggliness/ease were given from DH and others despite not knowing my lack of meds (DH knows) plus the libido, well.....
Anyway, I had been struggling with a cold on and off since before Christmas. It was getting me down. Then on Friday I had a big bad mummy moment, said some things that I have dwelled on and it seems have sparked my anxiety in a big way.
I have now had almost of 48hrs of worry and on and off fear from intense feelings. They are fear feelings of me maybe having feelings that I want to hurt myself or my baby. Not actual feelings of wanting to do it but fear that I may have those feelings and they may over power me, does that make sense?? Almost like I'm waiting to have to full on bad feelings that will overpower my body and make me do them.
I've cried to my mum(were staying here for the weekend) and I feel better but I'm confused. These are so strong and so sudden, am I relapsing or are they delayed withdrawal affects for the Citalopram??
Sorry of the long post, if you've got here and have any words of wisdom please feel free to leave them..... TIA
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Worriedscaredbutstrongish · 07/02/2016 01:52
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