I am writing here because I need to get it out. The black dog is well and truly out of his kennel today. He's so far out of the kennel he's on my lap.
I know i'm a failure, I know i've fucked up my life so far, I know that i'm a burden on my parents.
I moved home about two years ago after a relationship breakdown, i've been ever since, i'm 30 years old, I should have my independence, my own life but in reality I just just sit in my room all day. On my laptop.
I had a good job, but I gave it up to work in another place, but due to my back getting worse, I lasted a week, i'm now unemployed, in pain, and obviously this is having an effect on my mental health.
I've not got any friends, I don't do well around people at all, I am so fucking awkward it's probably painful to watch me around other people. I can fake it to a certain degree, but crippling shyness together with no self confidence will win out in the end. I act at work, but it's not natural.
I haven't accomplished anything of any value, no children, no independence, i'm a drain on everyone. Especially my poor parents, i've got to be an embarrassment to them, their daughter is a failure.
I'm not sure why i'm writing this, I just needed to get it out.
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How to cope with being an absolute failure?
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