i need help, i really am at the end of my tether. i have v. bad life dehabilating ocd. it has got so bad the last 6 months.
i feel ocd has robbed me of everything but i literally find beginning exposure response prevention so hard, because once i contaminate the house & others (which is already pretty contaminated already) i cant go back
i went to have a bath which i havent in a week & something that gives me the biggest anxiety is in the bathroom ( a soap in the dispenser by the bath that is contaminated - it is one of my biggest fears) so how can i begin to expose myself when it is one of the worst.
i know feeling anxious & being covered in disgusting stuff is better than this life i am barely leading, but it is just the worst idea ever to try & face it - the anxiety & feeling is just so unbareable
im so ** off with my brain today, - i just wanted to have a bath & a walk and im so tired
any helpful words or tips would be nice, but i know i need to just face my fears instead of letting them rule my what is left of no life
i also tried to ring ocd uk on skype but cant on subscription. it is a 0845 number so just feels like a proper shit day.
Thanks both for replies - I'm in the middle of hypnotherapy but I feel like it isnt the right person, but have paid for a course of treatment ( i dont think the hypnotherapist gets it)
i tried private cbt and didn't help, i know i need to try again but at the end of the day i need to do it myself & i dont feel strong enough. i also worry that ill be waiting quite a while for cbt, i know what they will say & what i need to do - face my fears - exposure, but i find this so hard.
i tried ssris but really struggled with side effects.
Def speak to gp and get on waiting list for therapy. Maybe try a different medication. I hope you get a sympathetic gp, mine was lovely when I told him. Others aren't so much but you can always see another x
I've had it my whole life around my phobia, was awful when I was younger, stopped me doing a lot of things that others my age were doing. CBT really helped me overcome some of it. About not letting the anxiety 'win' and then grow. Let us know how you get on at gp