Long story short, for several years now I have suffered depression, anxiety and eating disorders. I have been slowly recovering with small doses of beta blockers but no anti- dep's. I currently run a small business and the stress from that is immense.
I went to my friends (we will call her Amy) for drinks on Friday, I hadn't seen her in a while and I kind of dreaded seeing her as she doesn't mince her words, she has gained an old friend of mine (we will call her jade) who I can no longer stand dues to her bitchiness, all Jade does is bitch about me and.... it all, of course, gets back to me via Amy, but it still makes me feel naff.
Amy then went to me "don't be upset but I had my friend Charlie round with her little boys and she said how your very hated and not well liked by people".
Oh my F**king god I don't need this, ok not everyone is going to like everyone but to hear hated etc it made me feel physically and mentally drained, I keep myself away from gossip etc and my life is very quiet - the old social networking. What is wrong with people? I have people I'm not keen on, but I don't hate?? what on earth have I done make people hate so much????? I'm not a saint at all and I have been a party girl like 10years ago.
I feel like everything I have tried to build up like my self-esteem has just come crashing down.
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I just feel so low about myself
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AJFsmummy · 21/12/2015 17:47
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