MH team wont help, long history there, they've told GP not to re-refer me. They think/act/tell me i'm a terrible person, they wanted me to put up with abuse and blamed it on me in the past, the want me to be calm and docile in the face of their lies and bullshit. I have nightmares about what they have done in the past, latest horrible memry resurfacing is of when I was homeless and under their team and they told the council not to help me, they said I could sort it out myself. I was 23 btw.
They want me to go away and die. Im 30 now, I cant cope with anything, trying to do a course atm but got v behind cos ill, been unemployed 5 years, cant improve my life at all cos everything pushes me over the edge/is too much energy/cnt cope when depressed. I've tried and tried and want to give up now. there is literally nowhere to turn, dont really have friends I see much. Cant make new ones cos too unwell/can only just manage to feed myself/get up and shower once a day. Actually someone had to help me, cook my tea last week cos too confused/crying to think/cope.
But he is very patronising, he can be very kind but drinks too much and gets argumentative, always mansplaining and stuff, drives me mad(der). Am very alone, must be a shit person. MH team think so too. I would never be so cruel and neglectful as people have been to me, but apparently im fundamentally worthless and cant expect the same treatment others get. Lots of this seems to be or parallel to feminist stuff - i'm expecting to alwys smile, be patient, be kind and caring, please others - but not get it in return.
Can't call anyone, there is no-one. Crisis team, A&E, etc will tell me to call GP. Spoke to GP last week who cant do anything cos no-one will agree to help me. Cant cope. Samaritans will just be depressing. I need real people, real help and support, but its too late for me.
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very ill and nowhere to turn, everyone hates me
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elementofsurprise · 23/11/2015 20:31
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