This time last week I took an overdose and failed. My brilliant and supportive and generally wonderful DP saw empty pill packets (around 30 paracetamol, some old sertraline pills, I've been off around a year but used to be on 150mg per day which at 8 stone is quite a bit I think) and rang ambulance. I was discharged from hospital after the liver protecting drips late last Saturday. Since then I've been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety and put back on sertraline, with therapy to come once I'm with community mental health team not the crisis team. None of this is a surprise to me; it's not my 1st attempt, I've had mental health issues on and off for years and, ironically, I work for CAMHS within psychology.
I can get through all this eventually, I'm confident with my care team, the hardest part is the absolute numbness I feel towards DP. He could not do more and I know I love him (thankfully no kids yet) but right now I don't even particularly like him. I don't really feel anything for anyone to be fair but it's more acute as he's my best friend, I love him and he's trying so hard and clearly so scared.
Does this pass? Is ot the depression or have I just fallen out of love ? I've been mid-fog for months now, last week was not a cry for help but a genuine attempt, and now I just don't care. I want to care. I miss feeling love not low level irritation. Can anyone help or advise or anything?
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Depression - numb to DP
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MrsCorbyn · 06/11/2015 13:03
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