I just want to write this here, because I don't want to share in RL.
It's the anniversary of my dad's death and as soon as the clocks go back every year and the day of his anniversary arrives my depression heightens. I've been feeling fine recently (long history of depression, on and off ADs for decades) but since yesterday, bang on cue, I've found myself in a state of melancholy. I'd really like to get into bed and hibernate but am forcing myself not to - did family stuff yesterday, went for a walk in the park this morning, am stealing myself to do some crafting this afternoon. At work rest of week.
The thing is he died decades ago, but this time of year still hits me hard (some years more than others). He had a long and traumatic illness and I was a frightened child whose feelings come back to haunt me on an annual basis (and Halloween doesn't help)
Not sure what I'm trying to say really, just feeling the need to write it down.
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Bad time of year for me
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AnnieNoMouse · 26/10/2015 12:53
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