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[orangepeels2]

OK, so where to start? I have a 5yo son and an 8mo son, during my pregnancy I had depression which was due to a very stressful MIL making my life a misery plus severe SPD, rib flare and carpal tunnel along with everything else pregnancy has to offer lol! My son was born and since then I have been back and forward to the doctors with numerous things wrong with me, at first I was told I have IBS, and inflammation in my blood which is yet to be reassessed. I feel ill all the time apart from a few weeks scattered here and there where I have felt brilliant, started losing weight, excersising then all of a sudden I'm knocked off my feet again whether it be with IBS pain, chronic back pain, anemia and now a chest infection that is not shifting even with steroids and antibiotics, but the doctors, instead of putting my mind at ease and testing me for everything possible, like I would like them to do because Google has me believing I'm dying, has thrown antidepressants at me. I'm writing because I don't think I am depressed, I have a very happy home life and when I do feel a bit better I'm out doing things with friends, its the constantly feeling/being unwell that is making me feel low and have breakdowns. My own mum today said she thinks I am depressed and its manifesting in physical symptoms. I am so fed up of people telling me I'm depressed when I don't think I am, I am worried there is something wrong with my health, not my mentality ??

[Tisgrand]

I felt awful for years and couldn't understand why I kept breaking down, as I have a happy marriage, lovely kids, a good job, nice home etc. Eventually I said it to my GP who explained that you don't need to have a "reason" to be depressed, sometimes its just a chemical imbalance in the brain. Once he explained that, and put me on mild ADs, I've been fine - except for a period when I thought I was cured and gave up the ADs. That resulted in about 6 months of feeling ok followed by a long painful descent into the "black hole" again. Needless to say I'm on the tablets again now! Try them for a couple of months and see how you feel after that - if there's an improvement in your mood then it will have been the right decision.If not, then there's something else going on. BTW, I also was convinced I had either a heart problem or skin cancer, or both, and was back and forth to the GP. Actually I'm as healthy as a horse, albeit a depressed one!