I'm sorry if this sounds a bit poor me. I just need to get it out as I'm feeling so shaky emotionally. I took an overdose the night before last. I cleaned the house. I put loads of food down for the cat. I took photos of my kids to bed. And I took a lot of pills with alcohol. I had hallucinations and am only just coming round now. My husband found me and called nhs who told him to take me to hospital. I saw a mental health professional and had all the medical checks . They let me home. I'm now alone again although I guess I will be called by SS this week? The shock of all is hitting me. I feel so sad. What do I do now? Big question probably very hard to answer. I just needed to share as only my husband and medical people know what I've done. Life seems so relentless
You must be gentle with yourself, an attempt like that is very traumatic. Is you DH supportive? You mention being on your own, do you feel safe?
My sister took her second overdose last night so I understand to some extent the emotions that must be flying around your head right now. Please ask for and accept any help you can get because this is a big thing to face. In time things can feel better again. Thinking of you.
Hello pnutter, you have had a very traumatic experience, I am thinking about you. I am not much help but I want you to look after yourself and your DCs. If SS come use their help and expertise. Most of all realise how important you are and to the lives around you.
Please don't take this the wrong way OP - I am not judging you in any way at all - I know the torment of mental illness at first hand. Just wanted to say that it isn't a good idea to talk of ways of ending your life on these threads because it can be triggering for others also suffering. There was a problem last year when this arose and many MNs were very upset as someone was being very specific about what was happening in real time (if you see what I mean) MNHQ got involved and asked everyone what their views were about this and there was a long consultation period. They also took advice from Samaritans. The consensus was that it is ok to talk about suicidal thoughts (after all there's not many places we can talk about them is there...........) but not wise to talk about specific methods.
Hope you're not offended. Hope you can get the help and support you need.
nana, is it really necessary or helpful to quote those guidelines to OP here? This isn't an ongoing or planned attempt, OP was vague about the details, and it's very clear from the title what the post is about.
If you feel OP broke the guidelines then report, but I don't think that OP's post was what those guidelines were intended to deal with.
nananina that was really insensitive and out of line. How is the op supposed to know about what happened last year and anyway it's not as if she went into great detail. She's here for help, give her a break.
Op please don't worry and don't report your thread. How are you feeling today?
It's always risky to post in the way that I did but I was trying to be helpful and yes I suppose it would have been better to have reported the post. There's no need for the thread to be removed OP, but I'll report my own post to MNHQ and maybe they can advise. crapartist I know the OP doesn't know what happened last year which is why I tried to explain as sensitively as I could.
I do resent you telling me to give the OP "a break" - I suffer from depression which can be severe at times and wouldn't dream of being judgemental to other sufferers, or insensitive. I've spent many hours on these threads, supporting others and getting support for myself of course.
Thanks Nina, we've changed the title of the thread.
We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources - here. You can also go to the Samaritans' website here, or email them on email@example.com.
Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.
We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.
We really hope things start to look up for you soon. Kindest to you.
OP I have been where you are. I know that terrible feeling. You can speak out here and most people are very supportive.
In terms of what to do next...be kind to yourself. Talk to your husband, rant, scream, cry, take to bed or go for a walk. Whatever will help.
Try to eat and take care of your physical self. I know it's hard when you are so down. I have two toddlers and a full time job, I just felt like my life was pointless. That I was a non-entity. But I'm slowly clawing my way back up.
Are you on any meds, have you had them changed or a dosage tweaked lately. I know that can be a trigger for me.
You could try mindfulness, Headspace app is free for 10 sessions.
Have you had counselling before?
Tell us more about yourself, we might be able to help, even if it's just a hand hold in dark times.