Wish I could just go, but I'm pregnant

[IAmNothing23]

I'm a complete failure in life! I'm 23 years old, 17 weeks pregnant and I've failed my degree, twice. I'll never have a successful career and my child will suffer as I'll never be able to provide them with the life they deserve.

I have a shaky job history and mediocre GCSE and A level grades. I've been applying for jobs for the last 3 months with no success. I've gone to interviews and I never hear back. I'm trying to avoid going on JSA because I'm ashamed and I've been treated like scum by an advisor when I was previously claiming.

I don't even know what I want in life, what path to go down. I ruined my chances of becoming an artist 9 years ago when my dad told me to give up painting and to focus on my science subjects, which I hated!. I'd always been a talented artist up until then, it was the only thing I was good at.

I don't know where I'm going with this or if it even makes sense.

Maybe I should give my baby up for adoption and then end it.

I don't know what to do, nothing seems to be getting better. Just worse by the year.

[lincolnshirelassy]

Hi IAM so sorry you are feeling like this. Have you spoken to your GP or midwife about how you feel? Hugs

[MummySparkle]

I think you need to speak to your GP or midwife too.

My teachers at school pressured me into taking French instead of music and I regret listening to them every day, I know that feeling well.

I gave up art at a-level too, but then changed schools, restarted my a-levels and ended up doing art at uni. It's never too late. A BTEC would be a good re-introduction into arts education. Or if you don't want to study get. A portfolio of work together and have a look at arts based jobs.

I had a truly horrible JSA lady once. Thankfully I took the plunge again and the next lady was lovely. I think it made a pleasant change for her to actually have somebody who was actively trying to find a decent and appropriate job, as opposed to somebody scraping the bare minimum and then shouting at staff. Try again sweetie x