I can't do things for me. It's hard to explain, a current example, I need a new passport, i want to take my children away on holiday during the summer, no objection from their father, I have all the forms, I can't filll them in. I regularly miss deadlines to pay bills and have to pay penalties. I'm a single parent but work full time and earn a decent salary, I can afford all my out goings.
I know this is a psychological block but don't understand it.
Any comment/advice would be gratefully received because I need to break this cycle. I feel genuinely disabled to do stuf until it hits crisis point and need to understand why.
Is it a kind of self-sabotage? Feeling that you're not worth doing things for? Counselling might help. I'm a bit like this. Very connected to how I was brought up. My feelings came last, and other people had their needs met first. Any bells?
I used to suffer terribly from anxiety attacks that were related to travel - going somewhere rather than any particular mode. I have that under control withoug medication. It's transferred itself hasn't it?
Ive suffered from anxiety for years, since a child and I'm the opposite now. I used to be like you but now I do things straight away or it makes me more anxious and keeps me awake. I used to hate lying awake knowing I had a ticket to pay
there isn't a magic button. The fact you overcame your anxiety before means you can do it again.
Don't be hard on yourself - everyone procrastinates.
My list would be prioritised differently. 5 minute job that you can do with no extra info. Get that done. Feel good about it. treat yourself. Tick it off your list. You don't have to do the list in order.
Just one thing. That's enough for now. Maybe something you can do online? they often have help buttons to explain things that are unclear.
What helped me was setting reminders on my phone, so it flashed up - pay ticket today! And I would force myself to sort out two things a day - one in morning after brekkie, the next after dinner when kids asleep. Little steps
I can relate to this. I really struggle to get (some) things done, to the point that I sabotage so much, make things 100x worse, by procrastinating, etc etc I'm having therapy and we are working on a hypothesis that it's partly due to a lack of support when I was tiny and completing important (to me) tasks and partly, as alluded to above, due to over criticism from my mum. It's a work in progress though!