I know there are people with worse things going on but I am having a hard time.

[StrumpersPlunkett]

my MH has been so stable for ages and after a run of stupid things going on in my life the last couple of weeks I am back to feeling the blood pumping round my body and feeling fight or flighty all the time.
I have ptsd which is almost totally under control yet these setbacks have really been triggering a response and it is getting on my nerves (literally!)

I know my therapist would say cut things back to the essentials and give myself time to regroup and start again yet there is nothing that I can cut at the moment.

trying to get DS1 ready for residential school trip, uniform for DS2 ready for the week, Dh is away for the weekend, Dad has just been round to pick up some stuff that DH promised him, Dsis is going to be furious with me as something we have had planned for ages is going to have to be cancelled and she has taken time off work etc. Mum is frustrated that I haven't taken time to see her recently but it is all I can do to get out of bed at the mo! (dad mentioned when he was here that he loves me but I am a bit rubbish at communicating sometimes) all I could say is yes, I am, and I love you to.

washer is on with stuff DS1 needs for residential dishwasher is on, boys have been hiding from me by tidying their rooms (bless them!!)
Dinner is going to be left overs

It seems like things are almost there but inside this rushing of blood round my body is awful!

[StrumpersPlunkett]

argh it has just started raining so I have to put the heating on to dry his clothes!¬!!!!!!!!!!!!

[StrumpersPlunkett]

sorry to be so needy but any one around

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One small thing you only need to do school clothes for tomorrow today.

[Queenofknickers]

Hi (waves) it sounds like you're doing a superwoman-worthy load of jobs! Can you make a plan to cut things back a bit this week like your therapist suggests?

[LardyMa]

Xxxx I am so sorry. Could you at least plan something nice for you once all this rush is over? You are not alone. It is a busy time of year. Please don't feel guilty about other people. Xxxx

[Queenofknickers]

Also could you take even 10 mins out to sip camomile tea and just slow your breathing? I read about something called "the sabbath principle" in a book called The Joy of Burnout. Basically it takes what Jewish tradition does on the sabbath and instructs you to do nothing but that which MUST be done that day. So basically if everyone is fed, warm and alive then you are done for today! I find it help me when I get into overdrive.

[StrumpersPlunkett]

thanks ladies,
LardyMa, the light at the end of the tunnel was a spa day with my sister next week unfortunately it has been cancelled adding to the feeling of argh!!!!

DH back from his weekend away, and has helped to pack rucksac for school trip. Definately a bonus.
My lovely sister is quite volatile and she is going to explode that we can't go to the spa, as it is the spa's fault (double booking no space) there is nothing that can be done other than change the date.

It really is silly season with regard to commitments for the children and I feel out of control of things.
this week we have had 3 school trips and an all day sport day, a dentist appointment and an orthodontist appointment as well as normal sports clubs, and beavers and scouting commitments. Oooh and a charity fete on saturday 8-1pm.
Is it wrong that I am looking forward to DS1 being away and only having to deal with myself and DS2 for 4 days?

God I know that in the grand scheme of things these are not problems I just feel like I am drowinging.

[StrumpersPlunkett]

x post QofN
there are a few Jewish traditions that I read about that really feel like it understands the human condition and the need for time and space.

[Queenofknickers]

Just to say also that there is nothing wrong with "skiving" some commitments. Due to my anxiety and MH issues sometimes I just cannot face everything and me and DCs cuddle up on the sofa and miss cubs/swimming etc just for that week. It's not the end of the world - sometimes there's too much going on!

[Queenofknickers]

Other coping strategy I use is to get a batch of family means from Cook and just heat one up each night. Takes away the what's for dinner stress.

[Queenofknickers]

*meals not means!

[StrumpersPlunkett]

oooh what is cook?
that does sound helpful!
Skiving sounds bliss, could do with hiding.