Hi i`'ve not posted before not sure in right place. I'm struggling with anxiety and depression. I've had a couple of sessions for cbt and it feels like the counsellor is frustrated with me for not giving her an issue she can work with it's like she's said I'm all over the place and she can only work ina more structured way. We ended up discussing how I organise my time and shopping as I'd said I was suffering with constant negative thinking to the point I can't do much. I'd mentioned I have lots of bad memories and it sort of started there. I was thinking next session I must man up and start being prepared to share more and dig deeper or this golden chance for professional counselling will be wasted on topics like shopping. Well it's all just such a mess in my head but a serious illness at Xmas and slow recovery seems to have opened the flood gates for anxiety and depression. Part of that at the start were random bad memories of mostly shitty times with my DP, one of which when he raped me when our 2nd daughter was a few weeks old. I don't remember the immediate aftermath or how I carried on but I know it,s only now 3 years later I realise that's what it was, that's what really happened. I don't know why I'm posting I've just had a dreadful morning of it can't move off bed in floods of tears. LO's ok with tv. Was meant to be a big cleaning day for me. Sorry I don't know what I'm doing really it's just I'm a mess and don't know what to do. Don't want to bother family I'm relying on them a lot at more lots of panic attacks etc and don't want to share this. Think it seems a bit better just for writing down.
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snoozealot · 13/06/2015 11:06
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