Don't want to be here anymore

[Tomuchcake]

Life is a total mess

[Tomuchcake]

Everything is just wrong

[Tomuchcake]

Posted in wrong place. Sorry. will try to get thread delated

[TwoAndTwoEqualsChaos]

I am sorry you feel like this. It is very late, might it not seem better after some sleep?

[WhereTheFuckIsMyFuckingCoat]

You may have posted in the wrong place but it sounds like you are still in need of support. Have you considered calling the Samaritans on 08457 909090, or emailing them on [email protected].

[WhereTheFuckIsMyFuckingCoat]

Yes, it is very late isn't it. Things always seem so much worse at night I think.

What has led you to feeling the way you are tonight? Do you want to talk about it?

[Tomuchcake]

It's not going to get better with some sleep, it's passed the smartians I think

[FastWindow]

Nothing is that bad, there are always people who would rather you were here on earth. Us included x

[Tomuchcake]

Everything is going against me.
It's gradually been building up since December and now it's at boiling point.
I just don't seem the point of life anymore

[WhereTheFuckIsMyFuckingCoat]

There's always a point, toomuchcake. You will have people who love you, depend on you? Why don't you talk to us? It's never too late for the Samaritans either - they will listen while you chat, rant, or even just cry.

[Tomuchcake]

No one depends on me. No one needs me, honestly, they dont

[WhereTheFuckIsMyFuckingCoat]

Do you have children?

[FastWindow]

The point is living. Doesn't seem like much but it's everything. Don't do what can't be undone. Talk to a real person, please, tonight, now.
08457 909090.
Worth a quick chat? They know a lot of stuff. I know. They're amazing. Saved me.

[TwoAndTwoEqualsChaos]

Perhaps it was the wrong place to post, perhaps not, but, see, people do care.

[FastWindow]

Yes, we do. Doesn't matter. People are listening.

[WhereTheFuckIsMyFuckingCoat]

I agree with FastWindow, Samaritans really are fantastic. And chaos is right, people do care - most likely more people than you would realise. I know things can seem so bleak but I promise, it does get better.

What do you want to do, if you don't want to be here?

[Tomuchcake]

I haven't got kids, so guess I shouldn't even be on this website

[Tomuchcake]

I want everything to be gone

[WhereTheFuckIsMyFuckingCoat]

You don't need kids to be here.

Who do you live with?

[Tomuchcake]

I was sexually abused when I was 9

I lost a baby nearly 11 years ago

My mum died

I broke up with my long term partner, had to move out the house we were renting

And iv lost my job.

See my life is like a Jeremy Kyle episode!

[WhereTheFuckIsMyFuckingCoat]

If you are honestly feeling suicidal, and think you might hurt yourself or try to take your own life, then please call 999 and ask for an ambulance. This isn't the real you wanting this, it's the hurt and depressed you. Killing yourself can't be undone, but you can be helped to feel better.

[prorsum]

Jeremy Kyle is a clown show, what's happening to you is not. Has the relationship ending and the job loss happened recently?

[Tomuchcake]

Yes, recent

[WhereTheFuckIsMyFuckingCoat]

I'm so so sorry these things happened to you - none of it sounds anything like Jeremy Kyle. It sounds like a series of tragedies that have happened to one poor person - you. No wonder you feel as you do - anyone might, having gone through all that.

Do you want to talk about any of it? Your mum, your baby? Do you have anyone in RL to talk to?

[Tomuchcake]

I don't have anyone in real life I can talk to..

My ex is supportive but it's obviously not the same as before

[WhereTheFuckIsMyFuckingCoat]

It's good that your ex is being supportive - was the break up amicable. It's crap that you lost your job at the same time. Life's a cunt like that sometimes!