All just too much to be coping wig & feel like I'm being pushed over the edge

[dontrunwithscissors]

I've posted about this in AIBU, but feel like I need a bit of space to just complain. This is kind of MH related in the sense that it's a big part of the problem.

Both DH and I work full time, we have two DDs (5&8). I have bipolar 2. I'm just at my wit's end with trying to cope with everything. Work, home, kids, MI--it's just too much. The kids have been so poorly repeatedly. I've had to take all the time off. (DH would gladly help, but gor complicated reasons, he can't). I'm falling massively behind with work.

I had a mega meltdown last night. I just can't take any more stress and sleepless nights. I can feel myself hurtling towards an episode & just can't see a way out. Perhaps if it wasn't for the bipolar, I would be able to cope. I'd be able to work late & not fret about how my mood is. But it's there & right now, it feels like a noose around everyone's neck.

Sorry--as I say, this is a bit of a vent. It's just that times like this, I feel really weak and pathetic for having bipoar& not being able to cope with life.

[colouringinagain]

Don't run both of you working full time and also running a house and being parents (let alone parents to sick kids) is v demanding and often v hard. Anyone who says otherwise is lying or has help.

Let alone with a bipolar 2 diagnosis.

I wish I had some advice beyond the - any way you can get some time out for you - which I'm sure you've been trying to do.

Sending much sympathy and and good wishes and hoping someone wiser comes along x

[dontrunwithscissors]

Thanks coloringin. It's good to just vent.

[colouringinagain]

Yes it is x

[NanaNina]

I was going to say the same as CIQ - you have an almighty load - can you take some time off work - you can self certify yourself for several days I think, or would it be better to see the GP (or psychiatrist) if you feel yourself heading for a nose dove to review meds and sign you off for a while.

Do you have anyone who can help with some of the load (practically) and do you have someone who you can talk to in RL. Hope so - I see you reaching out to others on these threads.

Sending warm wishes through cyberspace.