Taken a lot to come out with this.
Have finally agreed with DH this morning that I need to see the GP about my mental health issues and bite the bullet.
A bit of backstory.. I have been very angry since the age of 11. I started self harming around that time and also had a bad relationship with my parents, a long with lots of disordered eating.
From the age of 15 I became very promiscuous and put myself in lots of unsafe situations, and at 17 I was raped horribly by a friend.
About a year after that I very nearly killed myself and was sectioned for a little while.
After coming out of the section I met my now DH and we have a couple of children.
The bottom line is, I am so low. Every day. Terrible self esteem issues, I would rather not go out. I binge drink and binge eat. I don't sleep well. I'm so angry. I have panic attacks, I fly into rages. I self harm, I cry every day and will often breakdown sobbing on my DH's shoulder. I regularly think about killing myself but wouldn't do that to my lovely DH or my children.
In my eyes I've been depressed since I was 11, so way over 10 years. I'm finally ready to confess all and tell the GP I need help. But I am worried that social services would be involved or the GP would think I am attention seeking. Please tell me they will give me something? Something really is wrong with my head.
Thank you for listening.
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ourglass · 08/02/2015 15:20
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