I have a history of depression and anxiety although I've always refused medical help as I found a way of coping enough to be able to go to work but I have a 7 month old baby and I've been in denial about how I feel and in the last couple of weeks I started to admit to myself I need help. The problem is I don't know how to get the help I need, the gp or hv would be a good start but my anxiety gets bad when I even think about making an appointment with the gp and when I see the hv I have every intention of talking about it but when she comes I just smile an pretend everything's fine . I can't leave my ds not even with his dad, I left him once for an hour, had a massive panic attack and had to come home, I sat there crying and holding him for ages after. I don't sleep at night I have nightmares that someone has got in the house and is trying to take ds and wake up crying and can't breath. I have completely irrational thoughts that ds is gonna get hurt or something will happen to me like falling in the shower or down the stairs and he'll be on his own I have no rl support anymore, I haven't seen or spoke to my sisters since July and my only friend that I could talk to has moved 200 miles away. When I finally manage to see the gp what am I meant to say? 'Hey I've lost the plot and don't know what to do' my sisters told me that social services would get involved and possibly take my son away or at least give his father a strong case to get custody, I'm terrified of that happening but I need help I can't keep telling myself it'll get better because it's only getting worse
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