I think I need pills to be 'nice'

[DefinitelyNOTthepootroll]

I have struggled all my life on and off with depression. I also struggle with being bitchy and mean to those I love, but I am generally a 'good' person, follow the rules, do charity work, always helping friends etc.

I started taking antidepressants about 18 months ago and was doing really well. Came off them a couple of months ago and although I no longer feel depressed, I feel the bitchy, nasty side to me coming back.

I feel like I'd just be better on the pills for everyone else's sake, even though I don't feel depressed. I don't want to be a horrible person and that in itself makes me feel down.

I just don't know what I should do. I don't want to be on antidepressants forever but I also don't want to hurt the people I love.

[Glenshee]

Did you try counselling to help you develop strategies for being 'nice'?