Anxiety after giving birth

[Clairaloo1512]

Sorry this is my first post on mumsnet hope I'm in the right place just desperate to find some help and advice! Since giving birth I'm absolutely utterly terrified that I'm going to hemorrhage or something. My bleeding stopped completly 5 days after birth last week. Then I started getting bad period Type pains so after 3 days of no bleeding I went to the doctors yesterday who prescribed me antibiotics incase it's an infection. When I got home I started bleeding again but the pains continued. I went to the midwife today who said even a blood clot the size im of her little finger nail could cause a kind of blockage and once passed would start bleeding again. So I get home and the bleeding has completly stopped again not even a stain on the toilet tissue. Now I'm terrified I have another clot but even though the midwife has said not to worry unless its big clots I can't stop worrying think king I'm going to die or suddenly pass out whilst holding my baby. I feel ridiculous for bothering my midwives all the time I feel like they are talking about me calling me "the attention seeker" or annoying cow or something. DH keeps saying I need to stop panicking and relax because I'm not enjoying the early days of our baby and my sister says I need to stop worrying about every little thing but I can't help it. I hate not having control over my body or knowing whether there's some horrible infection eating away at my uterus. Sorry for the long post :(

[MagpieMama]

Sounds like you're having a really hard time.
Do speak to your midwife and/or GP about how you're feeling. They'll have dealt with it before and be able to help you. They won't think you're an attention seeker or that you're annoying, post natal anxiety is quite common and very treatable.

[divingoffthebalcony]

You poor thing.

Postnatal bodies are such bizarre, gross, leaking things it's hardly surprising you've been worrying about what's normal. This hasn't happened to you before and you don't know how to deal with it.

I'm pretty certain you aren't going to die or pass out holding your baby.

It's quite common to suffer from severe anxiety after giving birth. When I had my daughter I was in a terrible state for weeks afterwards. I was so scared all the time. I couldn't sleep with the lights off or allow myself to sleep because I was scared something terrible would happen to her, if I wasn't watching her constantly. I didn't want to be left alone with her either.

I think your anxious brain is latching onto fears about bleeding and infection in the same way mine was latching onto fears about the baby's wellbeing. Please talk to your midwife or GP about that.

[Clairaloo1512]

Thanku for your replies :)
I have the health visitor coming in the morning for her first visit. Do I mention it to her? Is that part of her role I'm confused as to what she actually does tbh. I see the midwife Thursday if not. Then again I feel I won't make it until then! God this is horrible :,(
Right now I'm sat feeding my baby scared of going to the toilet incase thers another clot

[Tealady1983]

Hi it's scary being a first time mum for any reasons. I am sure your midwifes know what they are talking about much more than me but clots are quite normal after birth. I lost one that was the size of my fist (tmi) and they weren't concerned I also found my bleeding slowed considerably after this.
Try to relax a little and as poster above said def speak to docs or someone about this anxiety x

[Clairaloo1512]

Thanks guys once again iv woke up and everything seems better in daylight its like I'm two different people at night and day! Still very scared you always here of doctors getting it wrong n things and I feel I'm going to be one of those people. I was terrified of bleeding after the birth and was reassured I wouldn't and yet I had a big bleed with loads of doctors running round me. Then I was worried I wouldn't be able to breastfeed and was reassured nothing would stop me and then dd was born with tongue tie making it a thousand times more difficult and painful. So now I'm worried they will have this wrong too. This isn't my first baby sorry forgot to mention its my third. I sometimes think that because things are so perfect now that I'm not allowed this much happiness and my bubble will burst at any moment !!

[MagpieMama]

Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better! I'd still have a chat with your HV, she's there for you as well as your baby.
I used to find nighttime the hardest too when DS was a newborn, I'd cry each night when it got dark!