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Somebody is standing behind me

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Aniline Mon 17-Feb-14 21:06:26

I get a feeling that somebody is standing behind me with an ax. I have been feeling depressed and suicidal lately. In a way I should be happy that somebody would try to kill me with an ax, but I am scared.

JesuslovesmethisIknow Mon 17-Feb-14 21:33:32

Oh honey, that sounds horrid. has this been going on long?

Aniline Mon 17-Feb-14 21:36:12

Today. I have been feeling suicidal lately. Maybe the ax man is my own outsourced feelings.

DumDum32 Mon 17-Feb-14 21:38:18

Can u call your crisis team sounds like u could do with someone professional to talk to right now!

sooperdooper Mon 17-Feb-14 21:39:33

Sorry you're feeling like this, is there anyone you could talk to? If not, could you call the Samaritans now and your GP tomorrow to get some support

Thinking of you, hope things get better

Aniline Mon 17-Feb-14 21:42:48

I can't call crisis here. I will talk to cpn tomorrow. I am sure I am outsourcing my negative feelings.

JesuslovesmethisIknow Mon 17-Feb-14 21:45:27

is your cpn good? x

Aniline Mon 17-Feb-14 21:47:32

He is ok. I just don't know how to express myself properly.

DumDum32 Mon 17-Feb-14 21:47:52

Can u get through the night safely? & then speak to cpn first thing tomorrow?

Aniline Mon 17-Feb-14 21:48:52

I am safe in my bed.

DumDum32 Mon 17-Feb-14 21:51:15

Good to hear aniline & I hope u get some rest smile

JesuslovesmethisIknow Mon 17-Feb-14 22:00:14

yes, try to get some shut eye and maybe write down your thoughts for your cpn if you cant discuss so well , it might help xx

giraffesCantBoogie Tue 18-Feb-14 01:10:29

Aniline Tue 18-Feb-14 06:51:58

Still feeling the ax man's presence. I will hava a chat with the cpn at noon.

DumDum32 Tue 18-Feb-14 10:10:45

Keep urself distracted till then maybe some tv!

Aniline Tue 18-Feb-14 13:49:29

I had a chat with cpn. I don't feel so suicidal anymore. I mentioned about the ax man. He did not really comment on that. I hope ax man goes away soon. He said he will discuss with psych about getting a new med to help my depression.

kotinka Tue 18-Feb-14 14:00:41

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

Aniline Tue 18-Feb-14 17:48:33

Thanks kotinka. It could be anxiety too, who knows but the feeling has lessened.

Suicidal thoughts are back. Cpn asked if I would like to be seen more often. He meant home treatment. I said no as I felt better. Now I am feeling worse again. I might have to call him tomorrow and ask for that.

kotinka Tue 18-Feb-14 20:25:28

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

mouses Fri 21-Feb-14 12:43:43

Aniline, I have this too. not an ax man but feelin like theres someone behind me whos going to hurt me, hiding around corner of the door. once I was running my bath and some one behind me was gona push my head under the water!

mine are shadows that taunt me, running around my house, makes me scared and edgy.

my gp and psychiatrist don't give a toss, just say its part of my depression/anxiety.
I sympathise for you. x

Aniline Fri 21-Feb-14 13:42:11

The feeling has now disappeared. I will start antidepressant soon.

Pity your doctors are not bothered if the symptoms disturb you, mouses.

mouses Fri 21-Feb-14 14:00:11

glad its passed for you.

i have them still even on anti-depressants, (not that it will be the same for you)

docs just say its all in my mind. if only they knew what it was like to live wit this!

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