So, I've had another breakdown. I'm not happy at the best of times (am forever on SSRIs), but having a particularly bad time ATM. I'm a SAH(M), but feel depressed and hopeless, so hardly a good mum at all. I sleep most of the day (poor DH has to try and take care of pre-schooler DS and work from home at the same time) and feel edgy and shit when I am up. I feel guilty for all my shortcomings. I am also somewhat hooked on pain medication to feel some relief from my grey tunnel of a life.
I'm also back to full blown bulimia. Feel ugly, weak and tired.
The fun part is that I am planning a bit of a career change and applying to study a healthcare/psychotherapy related degree this spring, so don't know how frank I can be with GP about my troubles. Also, in the past GP hasn't really helped much, as a change or higher dose of SSRIs never helped.
Sorry, I'm just ranting. I feel like such a shit and useless human being. Poor DS and DH. And now it's half term here, so no preschool. Fucking yay.
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panettoneforbrains · 15/02/2014 23:55
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