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trying to fight incredibly strong urge to od

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whiskersonkittens · 12/02/2014 19:45

told dh - he just said 'don't be silly'. Hard for him as he has no clue and I have been so much better lately.
However felt so sad last few days and then today I think there was a trgigger into something that I cannot even remember; I am now lying on the bed clutching a teddy and crying.
Weird as before I have only felt like od-ing when really sad/down but this time it seems like a real conscious thing - I know I don't want to, I remind myself that my kids need me and I have my safety plan but none of it is working fully. I have an almost physical urge to get up and walk to the cupboard with the pills...
Fighting it for now, but it scares me

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FannyFifer · 12/02/2014 19:53

Are you under a mental health team? Try have an early night and contact someone first thing.
Hope someone with better advice comes along soon.

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FannyFifer · 12/02/2014 20:20

How you doing now? X

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whiskersonkittens · 12/02/2014 21:11

OK atm as watching footie on TV. Think I may pop to the hospital tomorrow and sit in the day lounge - I feel safe there and it is so peaceful. seeing the doc anyway on friday so hopefully he will help if it is still there ...

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Honeysweet · 12/02/2014 22:32

Hi.
Sounds like a good plan to pop to the hospital tomorrow and sit in the day lounge.

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FannyFifer · 13/02/2014 13:00

How are you doing this morning?

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whiskersonkittens · 17/02/2014 00:41

still obsessing about suicide. Spent ages researching it online, got nothing else done so dh came home from work and was angry :(

told the doc on fri but as not actively suicidal when I saw him nothing he can do

the more I think about it the more I want to do it
dreading the next few days