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I HATE my brain!(8 Posts)
Meant to say I'm sorry you went through all that with the flood, how awful
Thank you, I do feel better today. Was still very anxious this morning and DH eventually persuaded me to go out with him for a bit. We went via work (it's a public place so not weird) and I asked my colleague if it was all ok and she reassured me. I apologised as I'd also sent her a text earlier - feel a bit vulnerable having exposed my craziness but she is a really good friend so I know it's ok really.
I will check out that website bluebell thank you
Carrie I have not been diagnosed with anything to do with anxiety, but the psychiatrist I saw over a year ago said he thinks I have OCD I'm not sure if he's right but I need to chase up the referral (I'm currently having therapy in London for a physical condition, and didn't want the two to overlap so I'd not bothered pursuing help locally)
I first got diagnosed with depression age 14 - so nearly half my life ago! - but I've only recently come to understand that depression is actually more of a symptom, and anxiety is the main issue. I become depressed because I turn all my anxiety inwards and feel a failure (social phobia is a big part of it although not as bad as it was) and basically wear my brain out with all the paranoid thinking.
Frugal how are you feeling today? X
frugal - meet your mate!
Mine became really bad in 2011, when we had a major house flood and had to move into temp accommodation whilst our house was re-furbed I went to my GP and couple months later attended CBT. I agree with you though, the Anxiety and irrational thoughts seem to just outweigh the CBT techniques, which then seem to become pointless
I was put on a low dose (20mg) of Citalopram, and that really did help me. I was also diagnosed with having GAD (Generalised Anxiety Disorder).
I too would be sat at my desk in work, and everytime my boss would take a call and close his door I thought he was discussing me and how to get rid of me! I believe now that this level of Paranoia was brought on by the GAD.
I now take 40mg daily of Citalopram and find they do really help. They don't take away the Anxiety completely but they do work to an extent.
Do you have a hobby that maybe you could do more of to take your mind into a better place? I love taking myself for a coffee and reading my Kindle.
There is a book by a famous American DR (he is now dead rest his soul), it's called 'Don't Sweat The Small Stuff...And It's All Small Stuff' by Dr Richard Carlson ... Each chapter is only a page (very small book) but puts your irrational worries into complete perspective. When I start to worry and my mind starts to spiral (which it does), I tend to refer to this book, or remember some of what it contains - it really did help me
I know Anxiety is a horrible thing to have to deal with Mine is combined with OCD so I feel like I'm battling every day tbh
I am here if you ever feel you need to chat. Do you have a supportive partner, family, friends etc? I don't if I'm honest, so have to pretty much deal with it alone, but then turn the negatives into positives by realising how much stronger I'm becoming x x
there is good info on that site, it may help you maybe.
Thank you, I feel a bit better having written it down and will try to sleep now. I just want my brain to change though! Haven't tried meditation properly although have done a lot of mindfulness. It does help a little, but it takes a lot of getting used to as my brain has spent my entire life doing the exact opposite (fighting against thoughts rather than accepting them). I know what I'm supposed to do but putting it into practice is a different matter it's because anxiety is a self protection method. If I expect the worst it won't hurt as much when it happens (supposedly!)
have you tried yoga or meditation? I haven't but i would like to learn these.
also, how about positive thinking?
I hope you will feel better soon.
Anxiety... it's the centre of my world lately. I don't even know when it got so bad - I didn't really notice it getting worse, or even that it was an issue TBH, it is so much a part of me that I didn't even realise I was doing it IYSWIM? Worry is my baseline emotion. I spend, without even (until recently) realising it, a huge amount of my time just trying to distract myself. The purpose of my brain is to try its hardest not to feel what it's feeling - to avoid it at all costs. But it doesn't work sometimes
Sometimes it gets into what feels like an infinite loop. I worry about something and it just gets bigger and bigger and my brain just won't shut up. Like tonight, I messed up at work, it's a minor thing and I've already apologised for being a bit behind but it has amplified and there's a big ball of fear in my stomach because I'm scared of what will happen when I'm next in. I'm going to attempt to sleep downstairs with a DVD on because it's the only thing that has a chance of drowning out intrusive thoughts. I've been lying in bed for over an hour just dwelling and panicking and my brain hurts from overthinking every little detail.
I am exhausted
I know all the CBT stuff so well I could write a bloody book on it but when the anxiety sets in it just isn't enough. I am trying so hard but I don't think I'm capable of not being anxious anymore.
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