hi all, I use to post here loads but have taken a break. but I feel abit wobbly and after texting my boyfriend with no reply - I can do with an ear might help?
background... ive suffered low self esteem, confidence, anxiety, prob more I just cant think right now since a child its all i remember really, feel like a lost cause.
my gp knows all about me said its depression, put me on fluoxetine, diazepam - year and half later says there's more to it... sent me to counsellor/psychologist, she said bi-polar then said I need more help then she can give. gp refers me to psychiatrist who says not bi-polar and is going on possible clinical depression? aint heard nothing since for a couple of months...
I cant handle nothing, going out, staying in, my patience with my kids is non exsitant to the point some times I feel like I don't want them. i know its not me, well i hope its the curse of the mind? im very confused.
i don't know why i wont accept depression, when i say to people im depressed feel pathetic (sorry i don't mean to offend just trying to explain)i feel like i have nothing to be depressed about, that theres people fighting cancer etc... i try to tell myself to get a grip. most people who haven't experienced just understand how power and life destroying it can be. yet even tho i know myself im ashamed.
i go high and low, mad and sane, im like the hulk. fear getting stressed cos i don't handle it well. i took diazepam earlier but im still sat crying typing this?
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i keep denying its depression... dontknow what elsei want it to be really?
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mouses · 11/01/2014 23:52
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