So this may be a bit long-winded.
I think I may be depressed. It's something I've been thinking about for quite a long time now but I just feel this state of inertia about doing anything about it.
In a nutshell, DD is now 2, really not a nice birth, induced, back-to-back, DD was born with abnormal leg which has self-rectified. I also went into urinary retention which was just awful and had to be bagged for two weeks.
I now also have a diastasis recti which is about 3 fingers width and my stomach area just looks awful, as though it fell down in the front. I think I do have body issues now as I am really not the shyest of people but will not let DH look at me when I am having a bath.
DH and I have had pretty much next to no help from anyone. His parents are Up North and mine are abroad. DSis has helped a tiny bit and DBro who lives near has done pretty much nothing.
First seven months were pretty hellish with DD as I just felt like I'd made a terrible mistake. But my feelings kicked in and things are pretty good now though her being a Daddy's Girl sometimes makes me feel odd. I had a few scary thoughts about wanting to hurt her in the very early, hard days but nothing since then. I do wonder if I had PND and also is it possible to still have it now?
I don't sleep very well but recently I have been falling asleep on the sofa and sometimes spend the whole night there. DH leaves me there as he knows I need the rest.
DH is loving and supportive but we are a bit frayed around the edges due to financial pressures, a recent forced move due to landlord selling our flat and now extortionate rent.
I just feel flat a lot of the time, I don't seem to have a sense of direction which is the oddest feeling as I used to be the most full of purpose person you could meet. I also have the feeling that many of my friends don't really know how down I am as I am very good at hiding it.
So I guess I need to see my GP about it but again, what's stopping me?
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ummingandahhing · 03/01/2014 21:31
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