make up, cosmetics and other super girly things.

[MysticMugBug]

This is a strange topic, and I really don't know if anybody else has felt the same way as me or can relate to what I am experiencing.
I am only in my early 20s, but this issue goes a while back to my late school years when I became accustomed to plastering loads of make up on my face.
I only wear light make up now, but at school and college I trowelled it on to impress others (I was bullied and desperately tried to fit in unsuccessfully).
I spent much of my late school life trying to be someone I wasn't as I was decidedly unique, but hated it.
Those were VERY hard times in my life mentally, but thankfully now after much effort, counselling and anti depressants, I am the happiest I've ever been.
However, as you can expect, some residue remains.
I am trying to decipher whether I can allow myself to indulge in some types of make-up (like eyeshadow for example) or whether I am attracted to it for the wrong reasons. I must do it for myself, not for men, or so that people notice me on the street.
I realise that most of you will not have had to make decisions this deep before, it probably just comes naturally to you.
Thankfully, I have just about mastered the art of dressing for myself.
Can anyone help, I'm not a complete nutter, honest
Thanks to anyone that gives advice xxxx

[fatedtopretend]

Hi mystic,

It's only in the last year that I have started to make more of an effort with my appearance for me-similar back story to you-and it feels so empowering to be making myself look good for me!

It completely depends if you are ready-maybe start with just one thing and if you feel you are noticing what other people think more hold back a bit until you feel more comfortable with it.

Good luck!

[fatedtopretend]

Hi again mystic, how are things going. Your op really hit a chord with me and I hope you've started to gain some self confidence x