So, at the moment, I'm undergoing a bit of a transformation. I am finally tackling my weight issues, I've got myself a job after 12 months of searching, after graduating from university, and last year I managed to leave a 1 year relationship that I wasn't happy in. All is going well.
Except, I'm still not "happy".
The back story to this is long, but the short version is, bullied from end of Y6 to end of Y11, and a bit in college. Secondary was so bad I was suicidal at various points, although never tried.
I have zero self confidence, my self esteem is very low, and very fragile, and I am very anxious - about lots of things. What new people will think of me, whether I'm good enough at my job, whether I'll ever be good enough for someone to love me. I think I'm ugly, weird and generally don't like myself all that much.
I am the only single person in my group of friends, and one of only 3 who still live at home. I worry about that, too.
I also don't deal with stress well, and put too much pressure on myself at times, like at work - I've only been in the job a month and I'm already frustrated because I still keep making errors, and am anxious in case my contract is terminated at the end of my 3 months probation.
The stress also leads to comfort eating, so I self-sabotage my progress (Slimming World is very good for me though, finding that really helpful).
Thing is, I am doing really well with this, but I think to be truly happy, I need to fix my brain, and I think a big part of that is accepting one key fact, that there's not quite right in terms of my mental health.
So, how do I fix this??
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Right, need to sort myself out. Help me do it, please?
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LollipopViolet · 14/09/2013 23:33
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