Is it normal to feel so overwhelmed with live for my kids that it makes me sad?

[Empross76]

Hi,

I've been taking ADs for 5 years. I started when DD was 8 months old. I have a mixture of depression/anxiety/stress which has come to a head again recently with me being signed off work and referred for CBT.

Had CBT assessment last week and one of the things that struck me is how sad I get when thinking about DC (DD is 5, DS is 2). I just love them so much and want to hug and kiss them all the time. I'd sleep with them if I could. I miss them when they are in bed and talk about them to DH all evening. I spend at least half an hour before I finally turn off the light to try to get to sleep looking at photos of them on my phone.

But the strange thing is that when we are together I don't feel such an overwhelming urge - they play alone, etc. And we spend time apart, e.g. staying with grandparents for a couple of days. Does that seem at odds with the clinginess I feel for them?

Was just wondering if any of that is normal or part of my MH issues?!

Thanks.

[Empross76]

Title should say 'love', not 'live'. Doh.

[mouses]

didnt want to read and run, i find it hard to show emotion to my DC's. i feel awkward when little one hugs me and when older one says i love you (not often but when) i havent hugged my 2 ds's in years

i dont want to play games with them do any thing kiddy etc. but on the flipside. i hate the thought of them being away, hate it when DD is at pre-school and sometimes collect her early. im over protective, angry, yell too much....

id be distraught if they wasnt with me, i dont let DD go with any one except going to school, not even her dad! - but i dont understand why i cant be more invovled with them. just find it so hard.

they must really hate it here, i remember my mum being the same and send myself crazy with thoughts they will grow up like me.

hope some one more helpful will be along soon x